Ugh.
Sometimes I just don't want to eat, out of spite for something.
For days. Weeks.
Anyone else get like this?
I hate contradicting myself. Because if there was no consequence, no lectures, no anger or worry, I would starve myself to nothing.
But I'm trying not to.
I'm trying to make the rest of the fucking world happy with me.
God damn, I'm not going to like this change in habit.
I already feel it.
Sometimes I just don't want to eat, out of spite for something.
For days. Weeks.
Anyone else get like this?
I hate contradicting myself. Because if there was no consequence, no lectures, no anger or worry, I would starve myself to nothing.
But I'm trying not to.
I'm trying to make the rest of the fucking world happy with me.
God damn, I'm not going to like this change in habit.
I already feel it.
Well I think that's what you call an eating problem. Anorexia literally tranlsates into "lack of apetite."
ReplyDeleteI didn't quite understand the last part, label me slow.
In my previous post here, I talk about how I want to change how I eat. I want to eat normal.
ReplyDeleteBut then at the same time, I just wish everyone would leave me alone about it, because starving myself is what I really want too. If it means being thin... I'd rather do it.
So I'm caught between health and thin. Which I guess is just the disorder itself talking.
I'm at the same point as you are....
ReplyDeleteThe only thing standing between us is how we
control ourselves. Do you want to be in charge
of not eating, or by being healthy? Whatever
makes you happiest.
You can do anything you want *hugs*
xx